Cadbury Cream Eggs, and Deep Dark Sadness

Recently I have been faced with a dilemma in the form of discounted Easter candy, which is especially plentiful at our local commissary. Because Dan's mom (who is diabetic) was coming for a visit, we broke all of the rules and bought a small back of candy eggs for emergency sugar situations.

 Now, I normal person would say, "Hey, no problem, those whopper eggs aren't for me, they're for my diabetic mother in law." or, "Oh, it's just a bag of mediocre Easter eggs... it's not like it's a fine milk chocolate Easter bunny, or a delicious Cadbury egg. I can just eat one or two and it won't be that big of a deal, right?"

Nasty crunchy speckled garbage.

Oh, Sydney. After all this time, you still put too much trust in yourself to make good decisions when it comes to sugary substances.

I sat there, drank a full bottle of red wine, and ate HALF A BAG of whopper eggs. My husband helped a little, but I'll admit that I did most of the damage.

I lay there, rolling around in pain and worry like a beached whale, wondering if I'll ever be saved from this predicament. I really need to stop drinking on week nights.

To redeem myself, I'll go ahead and proceed to list what I've eaten today.

Breakfast: 1/2 cup plain oatmeal, 1/2 cup frozen blueberries, 1/3 cup plain yogurt, 1 tsp brown sugar (All mixed together in what I call "Sydney's morning delightful oatgasm,") And also about 3 cups of plain black coffee.

My only breakfast critique is that I really need to drink less coffee... But it's so wonderful! And I go to all the trouble of making a pot, I may as well go on and make a half pot.. I'm too poor to buy a kurig. Dan stopped drinking it, because he says the caffeine gives him the vapors. I've also considered switching to low-fat yogurt, but I don't want all those additives.

Luncheon was a turkey wrap and a shit-load of delicious blueberries from Trader Joes. Meh.

Snack was a bunch of fresh radishes.

Dinner was a moderate portion of Dan's spaghetti squash pad thai, which is delicious as always.

I cheated a little, because Dan's mom bought us more Easter candy... SO, I also ate a Cadbury cream egg, a peanut butter cup egg, and another small handful of those whopper eggs..(fuck my life.)

I DID go to the gym today, and I did upper body exercises.

That's all I have to report today. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

maybe.

Until then, I'm going to post a picture of how I feel today.

This is what my life is now.